H O P E.. and an old farm house.

It was perfect.

A beautiful 3 bedroom farmhouse..

On 5 acres..

With not one..

but two barns.

and he said no.

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{If anyone reading this knows me in real life, you know that I grew up in the country. If anyone reading this knows me in real life, you know that I currently do not live in the country and miss it.. desperately}

"It needs too much work."

My husband said.

"And there's not enough privacy or land."

He added.

Then, the whopper: "You need to let it go. I don't want to talk about that house anymore."

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He wasn't rude, or mean. It was a matter of facts. Facts I knew. Facts we had talked about before looking going to the open house. But, I still felt like my life long dream of moving back to the country had been ripped away from me. I felt hopeLESS. I felt empty and lost. I stewed for days.. I can be a tad on the dramatic side ;)

and then..

I called my mother.

And she reminded me.

..that God is in control. That just because I want something 'yesternow', doesn't mean I can will it into happening. I'm paraphrasing, of course. I actually have a terrible memory. But she said some very beautiful words about God knowing the right timing for things.. and me? ..not so much ;)

So, I decided to try and find my hope again.. 

after that call with my mother.

She's so wise.

I dug around in my thoughts for a bit. And there it was under all my grumblings, and selfishness. Realizing that she was right, and that it still may happen, but in His {God's} timing.

H O P E.

I've found that it doesn't always just happen.

H O P E.

Sometimes you have to really choose it.

H O P E.

We will have our someday.. someday.

When it's in God's perfect timing, our dream house won't be a struggle. It won't be chaotic.

I won't need to 'plead my case' to my husband and family, talking them into how amazing it will be.

H O P E.

It may be hard work. I may have to remind myself daily about that choice. 

But I will choose it.

I can let it go, {yes, Elsa is singing in my head everytime I say that, too} and know that God hears the cry of my heart. I can know that He cares about my dreams and desires. I can know that the Father never says 'no'! He says "Yes", "Not Yet", and "I have something better in mind". And while I'm not sure which answer it is at this point. I can rest assured that He has heard me, and will provide for us.. when the time is right.

His perfect timing.

H O P E.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

My husband really is so very smart. I think he knew this before I did.

It just took me longer to figure it out. God, bless him for being so patient with me!

Be blessed,

Jess

So I'm Writing a Blog..

So, I'm gonna try my hand at this blogging thing.. bear with me. I've been feeling like I need an outlet for sometime now. Lot's of things running through my head. I'm sure, if you're a woman, you can relate!

And now I'm wondering..
What should I post?
What shouldn't I post?
Should I post pictures?
What kind of pictures?
People usually like a nice vignette..

{what's a vignette? one of my favorite bloggers, The Nester, has some great things to say about them here}

Not that I'll be able to please e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e.

Though, I do like a nice vignette..

Hmm..

my little yellow chairs

Yes, I think I like that.

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And maybe inspiring photo's and sayings like this:

{Proverbs 31 ministry is a great site for anyone looking for 
bible studies, devotions, and just plain helpful encouragement!}

I'll probably also post about my family from time to time. Since we're {not} perfect, and I'm sure you can all relate. I always like posts that help remind me that I'm not alone in this crazy world!

And here's my very serious official fancy disclaimer: I apologize ahead of time for misspellings{yes, even with google spell check available}, and an excess of exclamation points and smiley faces ;) I did not go to a fancy writing school like Oxford University, or take any community courses on blog etiquette {though the latter may not be a bad idea}. But I will do my best to tell my weekly and sometimes daily musings in a manner that is somewhat entertaining and easy to read while keeping things light and as often as possible, encouraging.

I'd like this to be a breath of fresh air for you. A place to come kick up your feet, and not feel bad about the pile of laundry staring at you until you finish your cup of coffee.. no matter what time of day.  ;)

So, I'm going to leave my first post at that. A rambling mess. While I go sit with my son and finish watching Veggie Tales and fold towels. Thanks for stopping by, come back soon!

What are you doing today??

Be blessed, Jess